I have said it before and I'll say it again...I want to be a Stay At Home Mom.
Please, if you are a SAHM, do not feel like I am saying I want this because I think it's easy. People don't say, "I want to be a doctor because that looks like it would be a piece of cake". I KNOW that it is not easy. You don't have to tell me all of the negative aspects of staying home with your children. Trust me.
But...I will say it again. I want to be a SAHM. I would LOVE that.
Right now, I have a home daycare. I type this while sitting in my dining room. 5 children are napping less than 10 feet away from me. I just got a glass of ice water and had to gingerly take ice out of my freezer, as to not wake the little ones. Then I sat down at my table in almost slow motion so I wouldn't make a peep.
This most likely will be my last year as a daycare provider. I am planning on returning to teaching next year (fingers crossed!). People tell me that I will love going back to teaching. They say that I will have a whole new appreciation for it. And I very well might. I look forward to a planning time and lunch break, even if teachers do have to scarf their food down in under 25 minutes. I look forward to having coworkers.
But I have been there and done that. I taught for 8 years prior to having the home daycare. I taught until my oldest was 4 and my middle daughter was 1. I know the whole song and dance of being a mom who works out of the home. I am prepared to do that dance again.
However, this does not change the fact that I would LOVE to be a SAHM for a few years.
Why? Well, I'll tell you.
I want to volunteer to help in my daughters' classes. I want to go on field trips. I want to schedule a doctor appointment at 10 am on a Monday morning. I want to clean my house while my older 2 children are at school. I want to give my 2 year old some one on one attention. I want to grocery shop on a weekday morning. I want to sit in car line. I want to be able to drop off my daughter's lunch when she has forgot it in the morning. I want to be able to go pick up a child at school when the nurse calls and says that they don't feel well.
I don't want to have heart palpitations every time a kid gets a fever on a Sunday and I have no clue what I should do because I would either have to inconvenience 5 other families from my home daycare or call out sick if I am teaching. I don't want to text my husband with things I need him to pick up on the way home from work because I am stuck in my house. I don't want to feel sad that my daughter was sick on a 3 day weekend and now I have no other weekdays off for over a month.
And these are just a few reasons. I know, I know...I sound like a whiny baby. But you know what? This is what I am feeling today and this is my blog. So there you have it.
Again, if you are a SAHM...please don't take this the wrong way. I know you don't have it easier.
Take it as a compliment. I want to do what you do. So feel lucky for a second. Look around and say, "Hey, maybe this gig isn't so bad".
Then get back to changing diapers, cleaning up messes, running errands...and all of the other glamorous crap that goes with the job :)